Tutoring went well today!!! My kids are awesome. They were so much fun that I ended up leaving a half hour late hehe I read them a book about things that float, so I got a tub of water and some rubber duckies, plastic boats, and little stones so the kids could guess which ones would float and then try it out. :) They liked it. Then they had to read me a book, but they really needed alot of work. I know now why they are in the tutoring program. They tried so hard, though, and I loved it! :D

My first day at the elementary school went really well today! Today I just had to observe my two kids (first graders, one boy, one girl) who are freaking adorable. All the kids were so dang cute I didn't even know what to do with myself! hehe After I did that, I walked to Aunt Julie's house since it's only a few blocks away and visited her and Simon. That was nice. We scheduled a day for him to come to GV and hang with me so Aunt Julie can get some work done (or just relax!) and I am family so I am a free babysitter! hehe Welp, I am sleepy, just thought I'd throw that update out there. :D

I am stressed and tired. I want to curl up into a ball and cry. But that won't help. :p

But, my program went really well tonight. Lots of people came and hung out and ate ice cream and talked with eachother, so I was really happy about that. Another happy thing is that our staff meeting got done 45 minutes early! :D I am still working on the horseback riding trip, but the date I booked it for is kindof bad for people, but that's really hard because everybody has a different schedule. I just feel bad that the Fujis can't go because they really want to.

So yeah, I am ready to just screw all this unnecessary work and just move on with life. I want to skip the stupid classes and just know everything I need to, get married, and start teaching. I know teaching will be hard, but at least I won't have to write 600 freaking papers every day! haha ok so it's not 600 haha but it sure feels like it!

I'm trying. just struggling. :p

ugh. School is hard. This is going to be a very busy week full to the brim with homework. I just reviewed a couple sylubi (sylubuses?) haha and they are telling me that this week is going to be hell basically. :p ahhh!!! I have to start tutoring at the elementary school, I have a 6 page paper due, LOTS of reading to do, another 2 two page papers, I have a program tomorrow before the staff meeting, all while trying to pretend that I have a life. man, buckle up Sarah, you're in for the long haul!
Well, I realized something terrible today...but I think maybe it was good that i realized it. I don't really believe in myself. I look at these classes and think they're too hard, and suddenly they are. When I think I can't, it becomes true. I look at my program for teaching and think omigosh I can't do it. I want to do it. I really want to believe that I can do it. But man, am I ever afraid that I can't. I was watching a video for Ed200 tonight, and the teachers featured in it were so inspiring to their kids. They taught the kids to believe in themselves because they believed in them. I was thinking, how can I get the kids to believe in themselves if I don't even believe in myself? I want to...I am trying. I guess I really don't know what to do to understand that I am good enough. I know if I am not believing in myself I will never get anywhere...I wonder who in my life TRULY believes in me.

Well hello there fellow bloggers. It's rainy, icky day. Actaully, i would love to go play in it, but I can't. Class in 15 minutes. Today is Sean's birthday! I wont say his present though incase by some off chance he reads this haha He does know I am making him cupcakes though. :-) Anyway, Sunday evening service was sooo excelent last night. God really inspired me. I was thinking maybe since I have not been making everything about Him lately, maybe that's why I'm so stressed and keep worrying. I keep worrying. I am afraid I am not going to make it. That I'll fail. It's a crappy feeling. I would like prayer if anyone feels the urge! :) I do love being an RA though. Not many complaints about that. The good outweighs the bad. I miss my best friend Liz sooo bad. I have not been able to talk to her since I moved and we need to talk about wedding plans! Not because they have to be done yet, but because that's what we do! I miss her alot. I miss everyone from home, but am doing WAY WAY WAY much better than last year in that area. Welp, I gotta get to class (and i left my umbrella at Ben's) adios amigos

quotes

Here are my favorite quotes according to facebook. Some are good and some just make me laugh haha

"Always tell of God's love. If necessary, use words."

"The God of everlasting comfort believed in me and loved me! When I was faithless, He still died for me!" -Five Iron Frenzy

"Don't sweat petty things. Don't pet sweaty things."

"A man who can drive safely while kissing a pretty girl is simply not giving this kiss the attention it deserves." -Albert Einstein

"Life's a rollercoaster, bud...just go for the ride and trust the engineer that made the dang thing." -Nathan Prater

"I gave Him my track record, He gave me a clean slate! I'm forgiven and I'm livin with no sin on my plate!" -Relient K

"Anyone notice how 'Dying' is stategically placed in the word 'Studying'?" -Kathryn

"I have never been in a love like this, oh you move my soul every time we kiss!" -Rascal Flatts

"Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing yet had been done." -C.S. Lewis

Nicole Kidman: "She has an awfully big chest to be going to church!"
Tom Cruise: "All chests are equal in the eyes of the Lord."
-Far and Away

"I need a constant prompt that I am a sinful puke who incessantly needs the reminder of how much the blood of Christ has set me free from." -Craig Coon

Ben: "Mom, I wear socks really often, do you think that's why I have small feet?"
Mom: "I don't know, Ben, but I've been wearing underwear my whole life and I still have a big butt."

Well...
Second week of classes was alright, boring. It wasn't even a full week lol But ALL my profs think their's is my only class. ugh. I've already turned in my 3rd paper and there're two more due on Monday. Most of my profs are pretty good I guess. My ed prof is REALLY nice, but I think we waste time with busywork. I swear my EuroCiv prof breaths sleeping gas. He is so boring and I have no idea what he was talking about after a 75 minute class yesterday. All I know is he wasn't making any sense and the more he talked, the more I wanted to sleep. haha My jazz class is kinda funny. :-) Most of us have never really daced before, so we were just kinda going throuh the moves, and there the prof was like, "Get into it! Put yourSELF into it!" Then we all started getting funky and she was happy lol I bet someone watching would have been laughing hard. :-) I just got back from worship team practice, which went well. I was kinda scared I would bomb, but I didn't. :D Tonight we are going to Celbration on the Grand festival and fireworks downtown. It should be super! I have been eating so much this week. ugh. lol I usually eat a ton the week before TOM, so it's probably an omen. I always hope maybe this month is won't come, but it always does, and it always seems to hurt more than the last time, which, at the time, I didn't think was possible. I would like to try being a man for a week every month lol welp, that's enough for now haha adios!