ugh. School is hard. This is going to be a very busy week full to the brim with homework. I just reviewed a couple sylubi (sylubuses?) haha and they are telling me that this week is going to be hell basically. :p ahhh!!! I have to start tutoring at the elementary school, I have a 6 page paper due, LOTS of reading to do, another 2 two page papers, I have a program tomorrow before the staff meeting, all while trying to pretend that I have a life. man, buckle up Sarah, you're in for the long haul!
Well, I realized something terrible today...but I think maybe it was good that i realized it. I don't really believe in myself. I look at these classes and think they're too hard, and suddenly they are. When I think I can't, it becomes true. I look at my program for teaching and think omigosh I can't do it. I want to do it. I really want to believe that I can do it. But man, am I ever afraid that I can't. I was watching a video for Ed200 tonight, and the teachers featured in it were so inspiring to their kids. They taught the kids to believe in themselves because they believed in them. I was thinking, how can I get the kids to believe in themselves if I don't even believe in myself? I want to...I am trying. I guess I really don't know what to do to understand that I am good enough. I know if I am not believing in myself I will never get anywhere...I wonder who in my life TRULY believes in me.