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la de da
that pretty much describes it. haha
So, I know I always blog about Sean on here, but that's b/c he can't see it. ;)
It's weird...I just feel like I'm on hold until May 1st, our anniversary, so maybe I can find out where our relationship is! We have been dating for almost a year, and I don't know where we are! We haven't said I love you. I wonder if he is having doubts or something. I just want to know where we are going and where we are gonna end up b/c, frankly, I am terrified of having my heart broken. It's extemely fragile. I want to hear from him. I just...am probaly too emotional, too worryable (nice new word, huh?), and maybe insecure...I never really thought of myself as insecure, but maybe I am. It sounds like I am, doesn't it? :p It's just that I haven't seen him in a while, and we don't talk that much!!! I wish we talked more! But I feel like I can't tell him that b/c I would sound pathetic. But that's really lame b/c what kind of a relationship is it if I can't tell him how I feel? crap. That sounds pathetic too. Basically, I wish we talked more and I wish I knew where he wanted this relationship to go.